Has anyone heard of DP/DR disorder or disassociative disorders before? I have been suffering from DP/DR due to PTSD and anxiety for the last 10 years. I am only 25. My life is a blur. My memory is full of gaps and holes in time. I feel as if reality is not real. I feel like I am detaching my "soul" from my very body. I wander aimlessly. I can't connect with the world around me. I feel like I am living in a nightmare. I would appreciate any advice, knowledge, or experience shared on this topic. I am very confused and very scared at times. I lose so much time that sometimes I can't even remember the simplest things; conversations, dates, times, places, names...sometimes even the people closest to me treat me like I am stupid or retarded even though I am very cognizant and intelligent. When I look in the mirror, I don't recognize my reflection. When I look at pictures of myself, I don't think they are of me. My past feels like a dream, like it happened to somebody else, and yet certain traumatic events I relive over and over again. This is not a psychosis. I am not psychotic nor am I crazy. I just have trouble understanding that reality is real and not a dream that I can wake from. People treat me like I am irrational and when I get angry about it I have to remind myself that sometimes I am a completely different person, who I don't remember being, and I act completely different then I usually would when not in a blackout state. I am not talking about completely seperate personalities or identities, but I do things I don't remember doing. I say things I have no recollection of. I do things I would never normally do if I was self-aware that I was detaching. Trying to explain this disorder is very difficult and frustrating. It sounds insane, but the worst part about it is that you are fully aware you might be, but yet know you are not, yet sometimes your actions seem irrational and crazy. What do you people think? Am I fucking nuts? Or is this real and I am just going through it? Does anyone have any advice on better coping mechanisms? Obviously detaching is the way I cope, but by detaching I no longer feel real and my experiences all become subjective. Help?? Anyone?