here are some of my soulmates in the world. we all hate people so much that we are respectful enough to stay away from eachother. how nice. if i had power, i probably would kill every living species on the planet with the idea that i'm exterminating evil and the continuance of the cycle of suffering and oppression period. since you become less naive as you get older, i've also realized that many people who seem to care about life or don't see it as radically but in the usual way, isn't always due to humanitarian motives, it's just that they have less of a problem with evil or maybe even evil themselves. paradoxically, the lower and baser the standards, the more tolerant you may appear to be but that's just the surface. that's why scum have no problem with the way of the world. but ironicly, that doesn't always mean they are more ethical, caring or better people either. it's very ironic. i came into this world loving people (assuming they were good) and the longer i live, the more i hate the human species empathically. you can be annoyed at people for how they talk, their level of intelligence, their personal taste, the sound of their voice, mannerisms, their ethics, politics etc. it's endless of how can you 'count the ways i despise you' sort of thing. i think this is because the more experiences you have with people, you associate varying behaviors and characteristics with past associations with people that you did not have a good opinion of that were similar. i was out tonight and if i was being honest with myself, i couldn't stand being around half or more of the people around for various reasons. it's odd how you can end up just being tired of people and finding the human species disgustingly fault-ridden, subpar and loathsome but think they are great because they are the majority. so much so that i've even formed a philosophy that humans and all life do not deserve to exist period because of that evil (besides various levels of stupidity and ability to be annoying in infinitely grotesquely petty ways) that pervades, despite some good. this even knowing there are some people that i do love and care for as well as some people that i do like and respect as well. this is because i'm looking at it in a bigger picture. even though i have this philosophy, ironicly, it doesn't mean i want to hurt others personally. while life exists, i would still be considerate to those who deserve it and civil in general and hate to realize suffering, especially of the innocent etc.