http://www.huffingtonpost.com/hanna...omen-smile-men-sexually-harass_b_9329138.html Just like today, i almost forgot. I almost forgot the world is full of people who will try to be inappropriate and they do it so sneakily and so easily society can do nothing. Another would say 'he seems to be an okay man', coming from another male who would not ever be a target so that is the reality they know. I was having a good day and then i got that slow, churning, creeping feeling start to well up from the pit of my stomach in a situation. it was my intuition letting me know something was about to happen and even though my 'logical' mind tried to stay positive, stuff that down, that it could just be imagination, it happened: the inappropriateness coming from the person i sensed was not genuine friendliness but with ulterior motive. Again, again, again with different faces and people but it is pervasive especially with men. Was it some homeless person? NO, it was in a seemingly normal situation. They are everywhere, scum has no specific racial, social or economic status. And then i come home and i have a sick and disgusted feeling of being tried and poked and pushed that is done disguised under pretense of innocent normality/friendliness. I fall to a dark space, the space of realism, once again. Stop the carefree, nice, bubbly, friendly happiness i wish i could just be and let be but i can't as there are many out there who will see that as an invitation to try me. it's always the same, the more friendly, kind or nice one seems, they are the prime target. people can get so annoying, you just want to blow them to smithereens. Then once again, i have to show my dark side, put nice back on the shelf and that i'm not to be messed with. I have to put my guard up again and again and again .. even though i don't want to live that way. i have to. and then hate wells up. i despise some types of people's very existence and then i wonder how the world is full of such disgusting assholes and evil and then i think there wouldn't be so many if their mothers had raised them right and how it's the mother and the women in their lives who usually have the most influence in a male's life and then i'm disgusted by most women besides just the men with their entitled patriarchy or veiled stench. I get angry at society and the veneer of it. How so many people just act the act while showing their true colors when bits of shade gives them opportunity to try shit and then act again when 'normalcy' is lights/action. I can get to a point where everything shuts off and i feel nothing. zero. cold. and i wouldn't care if every human died on this planet because i see it at least, even if some good people died, at least the rest of the human filth is gone too.