Personhood. Throughout my life I have had very strong tendencies towards depression and grandiosity stemming from a fundamental inability to be truly authentic. And I know that this stems from unprocessed trauma in my history. I project onto the world a false image of myself and have it mirrored back to me like a security blanket. But it never works as a strategy for freeing myself because it is just not honest. The honest approach is obviously to admit to myself I need therapy. I have tried before but have yet to find the right fit. And the other honest approach is I have to learn not to be hard on the parts of myself that are false. They are there for a reason and serve their purposes. When I dissociate myself from them. I'm turning myself into a contradiction. I am my thoughts and feelings, whether they accord with what I would like them to be or not. But really it all stems from a need to withdraw projection from the world, not get worked up about things I cannot control or should even be interested in controlling, and be able to relate to other human beings fully, without casting them into roles to keep them at arms length. I have to admit to myself that a) I have the same rights as everyone else and b) I'm not special. But I do have a birthright to be happy and real. I strive to claim it. I have no idea if any of that made sense, but it is just what came to me when I saw that question.