Some people are regulars everywhere they go. Jim stops in at Ed's diner every morning on the way to work.
"Good morning, Rosie."
"Hiya, Jim. The usual?"
"Yeah. But don't-"
"Don't break the yolks. I know. Don't you ever get tired of saying that?"
"I'll get tired of saying it when Ed gets tired of breaking my yolks." He says it loud enough for Ed to hear it through his greasy little order window. Ed looks and waves his knife at Jim in a playful fashion. A quiet, polite laughter interspersed with snickers lazily wanders through the ten or twelve people there. It's the same ten or twelve people who were there the day before.
At nine o'clock Jim wanders out of his office and down the stairs to the roach coach parked outside for his morning coffee and cigarette.
"Hey Frank." Jim always uses people's first names. People are compelled to learn and use your first name in exchange in compliance with one of those archaic unwritten social rules. It makes Jim feel connected. It makes him feel accepted. He knows he'll be missed when he's not there. Jim is a part of something larger than himself, if people know his name.
"Hello, Jim. How's it doing this morning?" Everyone say's 'How's it going', Frank wants to stand out a bit.
"Eh. Can't complain. Well, I CAN, but I'll spare you." More polite laughter ensues.
I never could understand what people got out of receiving polite laughter. They do it themselves, so they must know it is insincere. I guess it's the same thing they get out of small talk.
"Light and sweet. Right?"
"You got it."
At lunchtime Jim heads over to the deli on the corner.
"Hey Jim. Is it gonna be ham and Swiss or pastrami today?"
"How's the pastrami look?" The man behind the counter, Vinny, shows him.
"Looks great, Vinny. I'll take it! Extra mustard, as usual."
Each night before Jim goes home he stops off at the bar -the same bar- and takes the same seat at the end. The drink arrives at the end of the bar before he does. "Jim!"
"Where's Valerie today, Paul?"
"Her daughter has a fever again."
"That's a shame. I hope it's nothing serious."
The cashier at the supermarket, his regular gas station attendant, the pharmacist... Everywhere Jim goes people call him by his first name.
Everywhere but home.
Jim smiles all day long at everyone that recognizes him. He smiles at everyone who knows his name. He smiles even when no one is around. He's just an all-around happy guy. He smiles right up until he crosses the threshold of his empty house.
People will miss Jim if he goes.
He settles down on the cold couch in front of the television.
He is well liked and respected.
He turns on his usual Wednesday night TV show. It's a mindless sitcom about a man who hates his wife and children and wishes he were single again. There's no one at home to fight with Jim about what to watch on TV.
But people will miss him.
He turns off the TV and grabs the newspaper. There is no one to ask for an eight-letter word for 'People run from bulls'.
But people will miss him.
No one calls Jim from the bedroom lustfully when he stays up too late with his model clipper ship. No one will miss Jim if he never comes home again, but plenty of people will miss Jim if he goes away.
The only way to keep going out, is to keep coming home.