Wow! What a wonderful, peaceful, loving christian. Just like Jesus.
Turning the other cheek, praying for his enemies, judging not lest he be judged, etc.
(sarcasm)
Seriously though witnessjudgejury you sound like you could be experiencing some serious mental disturbances. Is that what you think of us?
Well heres what I think of you.
My guess (although I'm only in 2nd year), would be that you are a delusional narcissist.
here is an excerpt from
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narcissism
"He feels that he is omnipotent, and misjudges his power and that of his opposition. He underestimates challenges facing him and pretends to be "Mr. Know-All". His sensitivity to the needs and emotions of others and his ability to empathise with them deteriorate sharply. He becomes intolerably haughty and arrogant, with sadistic and paranoid tendencies. Above all, he then seeks unconditional admiration, even when he does not deserve it.He is preoccupied with fantastic, magical thinking and daydreams his life away. In this mode he tends to exploit others, to envy them, to be edgy and explode with unexplained rage."
I am quite concerned that you may be capable of going in to a crowded area and killing a lot of complete strangers.
Do you ever talk to other people (in real life) about the thoughts you stated in your previous post?
EDIT: Here is another good link
http://www.healthyplace.com/communities/personality_disorders/narcissism/journal_60.html
"The Delusional Narrative Solutions
The narcissist constructs a narrative in which he figures as the hero - brilliant, perfect, irresistibly handsome, destined for great things, entitled, powerful, wealthy, the centre of attention, etc. The bigger the strain on this delusional charade - the greater the gap between fantasy and reality - the more the delusion coalesces and solidifies."