What! Are you saying!!!
It sad that you think your life is a waste, every human on this planet has a purpose including you. You lived the way you lived because you had to nothing more, what could you do. You alway live everyday you have to the extent because you are living and thats a given gift in it's self. Im sure everyone has felt that kind of emotional stress of begin lost, Angry, and fooled...I too have felt that way, but I have gotten to the point where I say I do have a purpose...the purpose is to live and DIE! must people think to themselves, "well, why be born in the first place" I don't know what religion you are but I think god has a plan for everyone...To die is to reach him in rather to be born to meet him. YEs I do agree that, there are many situation that we cannot escape nor control, but you must look at the situations that we can control and find joy in it that we may escape it. I can assure you that there is no infinite continues nor replays in life. I may not be able to prove it but with my current beliefs it rules the fact that we are reborn into this world. I agree also with the fact of unique thoughts being thought of before you ever thought of it, Its only right if that happens because someone was living before you and thought of much before you. My friend you are blind if you haven't truly seen it yet....we =) we are human...we are just plain ordinary imperfect humans made to live and die. The mind is never blind for it is always thinking about something.
I say in the future try and sit down with yourself and meditate please speak to yourself...for you only have the answer to yourself.
goodbye...until we meet again...