((Apostrophes(
Meditation may not be for you, but before dismising it from your life, look more closely at it.....'
well, i have done. but maybe not in the way you mean. for example, i question the very usual definition of 'meditation'....ask most people and they will say sitting cross legged eyes half shut...? well i dont think of it that way. i do, being aware of how you are feeling, no matter how shitty, or whatever. just that.
i also like to look more closely at its history, and behind the scennes of accepted forms of meditation and so on. theres always behind-the-scenes....
you continue: "..ultimately it [meditation] is a path to enlightenment"
ahaaaa, that old chestnut/carrot, 'enlightenment'. have you found it? whats it like? why should i believe you when you say you've got it? please define it
you continue, "when i meditate it is my original mind or tue self I want to find..."
IF you are looking for your true self. what is it you got already? you not true self? this would mean that youare constantly dis-trusting yourself. and this is precisely the danger i see with the accepted version of Buddhism, Zen, 'meditation'. THe idea that you are not NOW 'right' and must strive to GET 'right'. right?
".....Any form of stimulant or mind-bending drug will only steer me away from it"...you mean from your quest to fund your 'true self'? But like i say, what IS this true self? how do you know this aint a scam from movements, cults, etc to keep you keepin on, and thus supporting their membership quota?
"...I am meditate on a crowded train [etc]. I can't pop a pill just any time. And the benefits of meditation stay with me whereas the effects of drugs wears off"
well, i feel we are a continuum of dynamic experience. we could polaraize the portential from so-called 'mundane' to 'ecstatic'. of COURSe one can't stay at one end, ie 'ecstatic' forever, for we are a cotinuum. the important thing of ecstasy as inspired from hallucinogenic experience is Integration
((Spidergoat(
If you have not experiences enlightenment, you might want to take the advice of those who have, and prepare the ideal conditions for it..."
bu like i say. HOW can you trust someone who says they are enlightened and you aint? they might be fooling you. do clever body language etc to make you feel inadequate, and that you must wnat what they got. then yer hooked!
"If you arerelaxed while meditating, I don't think you are doing it right..."
well, to me this sounds like an Eastern version of the western protestant ethic.
you get this idea even with the threapeutic-oriented psychedelic people who warn of terrible things one must go through in 'order' to really resolve your 'wrongness'. ie., again porpaganderizing that how you ARE is 'not'right'
((Kula(
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