Okay...here we go...
I use the term Pagan, but I say that I have 'Wiccan' leanings. Why do I do this? The term 'pagan' is extremely broad and I like it that way most of the time, but if I am going to pick, say, my own sort of 'rules' or 'commandments' that I live by, I would say much of what Wicca preaches "moral" wise...I'm cool with it. For example, Wicca might say 'and if it harm none, do what thou will' (This I agree with), but several other 'pagan' sects might live by that same rule as well. I can't claim them all, people still think I'm a Satanist when I say Pagan and an air head if I say Wiccan, so I like to claim both together in hopes, at some point, they will even each other out
. The point is, I say Pagan mostly because any number of things I believe could fall under any number of different pagan sects, but people who know nothing about what 'pagan' means, best understand me when I say 'Wiccan'...or they try too, anyway.
Do I agree with all the theology of Wicca? No. Not at all. I like their moral code, I feel it suits me, but as for gods and goddesses...I see them as symbols...representations of life that I understand. I say I believe in a God and Goddess, because I believe in life and the Earth and obviously there is man and woman in both. Therefore, they are both important. Do I believe there is actually God and Goddess sittin' around, dictating life, pointing their fingers and pushing us around...I would have to say no. If there is something "higher", something "greater" in the terms of what we know to be God/dess, I won't claim to understand it...or fathom it.
Just an example: if I say I "worship" the goddess Diana, I mean I worship what she represents...I might aspire to the qualities attributed to her, but do I really believe Diana, the Goddess, is hanging around listening to me blather away? No. It's a way to focus my thoughts in order to attain what I hope to attain. Obviously, not everyone goes about things this way and some might think I'm fucking crazy, but this my reality, this is the way
I do things.
In the end, I worship being alive, here on Earth. One day I might just go outside, listen to the wind, enjoy the sunshine, admire the birds and bees and another day I might just get a crazy feeling in my head and go dance naked in the rain just because I can. To enjoy being alive, to celebrate it anyway I want, is worship enough for me. We only get one life, as far as I know, and so I think then that the life we get is sacred and so is everything that makes up that life...even the bad things. Therefore, the ground under my feet, the damn rocks, the trees, the sun, the moon, the wind etc...all effect my life in some way good or bad and I'm going to cherish every minute of it the best I can.
That is the best I can do for you right now.